< Upheaval: Held

Friday, May 26, 2006

Held

In the course of everyday life, sometimes things happen that totally rock the boat.

This week we had a tragic death in our community. Daniel came home from work and told me about it Monday, and since then, it has been like a lump in my throat. I strain to swallow, but it won't go away. It is constantly there. My heart feels so heavy for this family. I have tried to put myself in everyone else's shoes - the person who died, the mother, the sister. It is really consuming me, and that is not healthy.

It is so hard to not have answers. Why? and How will they go on? and again, Why?

I linked to this song a few months ago, but here are the lyrics again. Without God, I think life would literally be too much to bear at times.


Two months is too little -
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling.
Who told us we’d be rescued?
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares?
We're asking why this happens to us
Who have died to live - it’s unfair.
This is what it means to be held -
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell,
We’d be held.
This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows.
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow.
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell,
We’d be held.
If hope is born of suffering,
If this is only the beginning,
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our Savior?
This is what it means to be held -
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We’d be held.

2 Comments:

Blogger Heidillydoo said...

I am so sorry about the loss in your community. I know what you mean about letting it consume you - I've done that a few times in my life with tragic deaths of people I know, and now I also sometimes let deaths of patients consume me. You are in my prayers.

1:21 PM  
Blogger Jennboree said...

If it is the death you told me of, then I really can't imagine it.

One thing our mom taught us is that the sun will ALWAYS rise the next day and to apply that to our life. It has helped me alot through the years.

7:38 AM  

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